The Shadow Lane Party

Posted 7/27/04
Now, on to past actual experiences.

As I may have stated, I do have experience in the BDSM field. This is a description of my first experience.

I learned of a BDSM party that was being hosted by a BDSM publisher that was based in the LA area. The publisher was www.shadowlane.com, who still hosts them. They hold a couple a year. I went to the Halloween 1994 party, and that was my “coming out” party. I say that because that was my first public contact where I was open about my interest, and primarily because the people I was talking to were also interested. Let me say this, it was a great relief to find others that liked the same subject. The first night that I was there, a general reception was held in the lobby of the hotel. I remember asking and being asked about how each of us discovered our interest in BDSM, what our actual interests were, ect.

I recall that being a Friday, and some organized activities were held, like a lotto spanking, where everyone threw their name into a hat as, one hat for spankers, one for spankees. I remember spanking an older lady 10 times. It was my first time, and I told her, she didn’t care. I recall loving the feeling of a woman over my lap, WANTING a spanking!! Damn, if this world can be fun at times!! I savored each smack! She had wanted moderate, and I was told that I did a perfect job, even being a first timer. Well, I had experience, I had spanked myself, so I could gage the severity somewhat. And I knew the “sweet” spot on a butt too. That was sheer pleasure for me, and I know she enjoyed it too.

One of the scenes I especially remember that night was when a gentleman was just wailing on a beautiful blond. She was barely giving a reaction, and when he was done, she stood up, SMILING! WOW! I immediately noticed that she had a significant other there, so I considered her unavailable, except to spank. But how I envied her escort. Such a beautiful woman, whom by the way was English, with a sexy British accent, Blond, and into spanking! As I later discovered, she was a switch, and ended up being the life of the party. I never had the opportunity to engage her, but I watch in awe! In a follow up publication, Shadow lane had a photo of her being spanked, and I held onto that photo for years afterward, just imagining what could be.

The second day was a Saturday, and I took the opportunity to visit a local BDSM dungeon called Club Chateau. You can tour this facility on line, and learn more about it at www.thechateau.com. I took a cab ride to there, and was extremely excited about my first total experience in BDSM. At the time, I really did not know whether I was Dominant or Submissive, but felt that I was both. They assigned me a Switch named “Rose” to tour the facility. While there I remember hearing a girl yell/scream, and that just got me going!

This Rose then sat with me to interview me, and to find what I was looking for. I remember her as being sexy, and frankly, I would not have minded knowing her on a personal level, but then that is what you can expect at a “Brothel”. Now they are supposedly legally licensed as a Brothel, so the girls are able to go nude in session. So I was interested in exploring the BDSM world with her. So she charged my credit card, and we went into one of the dungeon rooms.

She started to take off her skirt and underwear, then prodded me to do the same, since I was a little apprehensive. She got across my lap, and OHHHH! The sight! Such a beautiful round bottom, skin so white, and ready for me to spank at my pleasure. So, as she instructed, I started in on her lightly. We had conversation as I went along, and every once in a while, I would give her a hard slap just to get a reaction.

Then we switched, and she started on me. What pleasure, laying across a beautiful woman’s lap, ready for a spanking. She started in on me, but for me, it was like playing, my pain tolerance was way higher, and I said I was bored. So, she had me stand up, and she got a small flogger. Yea, it had a bit of bit to it, but it really was not much. Then she brought in another Dominant for a few minutes, and they double teamed me. Now THAT got a reaction out of me. Especially when Rose was called out for a minute or two, and the Dominant was trying to get more out of me. So she concentrated on the area between my butt cheeks, and WOW, a few of those, and she had my attention!!

Then Rose came back, and she put me into a bondage mechanism that held my arms high and wide, and my ankles wide. I was helpless. She came in front of me. She admired my erect status, and for a moment I thought she might do something with it. But no, she didn’t. She proceeded with a flogger on my butt, and really started in on me. I was howling, but damn if I would use that “safe” word. It wasn’t long, and she let me down, and we finished the session with me spanking her again, and rubbing that fine ass of hers. We finished up, and then I had to wait for a cab back to my Hotel, so I could get ready for the Halloween party that night. While waiting, they got in a new flogger, and Rose unwrapped it excitedly, and had one of the men waiting give her a couple of swats. She took them giggling and with glee!

I forgot to mention that because of her and I meeting, she learned of the party, and later attended, making sure I noticed her. She apparently made contact with the proprier of Shadow lane, as she told me in conversation that night that she had discussed doing a video with them. And she followed through on that, as I saw her later as “Juliet Severe”. While we were talking, I felt a certain vibe with her, and I often wonder if she intended to pursue a relationship. But, it was not to have been. But I often wonder, had I pursued it, if I could have eventually dated her. I did send a note to Shadow Lane a few years ago inquiring about her, but they must have lost contact with her, by saying the last they heard, she was residing in London, but it had been a while. Oh well…

That night was a lot of organized, and unorganized activity. While I did not participate, I did watch several good spankings. I watched one woman, that I was familiar with from Nu-west get a hard erotic spanking until she orgasmed. She was exceptionally satisfied, and it took a long time for her to recover from it.

Then back to the Blond I spoke of Earlier. In one of the party rooms, she had her skirt raised, panties down, and was bent over for the cane! And a guy was giving her so pretty good strokes too. She was having some strong reactions, but seemed to be enjoying it too. There were a few welts left by that too. I am convinced that she went on to enjoy a lifestyle of strong harsh spankings, floggings, and cannings.

Well, that ends a long one. Neeros

My Ultimate Fantasy, and How I might live it out.

Recently, I have been trying to figure a way to play out my sadistic fantasies. Now before you go on thinking things, I would never put someone through something that I would not go through myself. While some of my fantasies are Sadistic, so are some of my fantasies equally masochistic. So any fantasy that I have, that I would actually want to do in reality, I would gladly be either the one receiving the corporal punishment, or giving it.

As I have been in public places, and purposely looked at women to see if they would work in a fantasy of mine. Ironically, most of the public would NOT! Imagine that!! I am open to either male or female, while I prefer female. Most men would not be appropriate for what I have in mind, to masculine, old, and overweight. With women, I calculate about 50 percent would do, if I hold my standards lower. Slightly overweight, to moderately overweight is fine. I think I would even take a obese woman if she at least was pretty in the face, and the obesity was not extreme. Of coarse there are many twenty-something’s, and even thirty, and forty something’s that would fit.

Next would be about actually living it out. Frankly, that will likely have to be put off for several years, since I calculate that it would take several thousand dollars to do. I once checked with the producer with Nu-West, whom is at www.Nu-westleda.com, to find out what I might expect for costs in such a venture (more on Nu-West later). He said I could expect to shell out over $10,000 for multiple women, and the cost would go up according to how harsh I wanted it, and how extravagant. That would be for a video production. But I recall the cost of paying the women as being several thousand dollars. I read one models version of being paid $1000 cash for receiving 50 strokes of the strap done in a pretty merciless manor. So I can imagine what I want to do would be expensive.

But I do often wonder if I had the cash, if I were to just put an offer out on the table, would someone take me up on it? And just where would that table be? Do go to a personals like www.Alt.com? Kind of a difficult question. After all, some would concider that solicitation of prostitution, right? But sex is not what I am after, so would it be prostitution?

Here is what I considered putting out there if I could:

“Wanted, pretty lady, or boyish man that is willing to take severe corporal punishment in return for a generous amount of cash. You will name the price, I will name the punishment. For an idea of what I have in mind for you, here is a sample. You will arrive at a business establishment that caters to the needs of the BDSM community (commonly called a “dungeon” by community members) where in a fantasy land of mine you will have already been convicted of a “crime” and you are appearing for sentencing that will be carried out immediately, and to its full conclusion. All expenses will be paid by me. My requirements are that in order to be eligible for payment, you must be willing to submit to corporal punishment that will be limited to your butt and back, that you be willing to allow me or a designate to deliver painful strokes of various corporal punishment instruments past your pain tolerance limits. Your health of coarse would always be of concern, and at the first sign of distress, or concern for health arises the session would immediately halt. The session may be carried out in front of a small audience of my choosing, and your approval.

Understand, that this will be a session carried out as if it were a judicial punishment for a crime committed. Upon your “sentencing” you will be given the option of opting out of the session by electing to take an “alternative” sentence of jail time. This would effectively negate any payment promised to pay for corporal punishment received. You would be compensated for your time and travel, and be released. But once you accept your sentence, you will have to sign an agreement that releases myself, and all parties from responsibility for what could be considered assault. The rest will be explained if you accept.

A couple of points. First, consider whether you are willing to even submit to such a session. Second, if the answer to the first is yes, then name your price. Once you reach that point, send me an E-mail including your offer, a description of yourself, any experience in BDSM if any, and a recent full body photo of yourself (does not need to be nude, but must demonstrate your body type), and if possible, a photo of your bared back, and a photo of your naked or tightly covered butt (must be able to see the definition of your butt). Also, please describe what you expect from the session, from your perspective if you carry through with it.”

 
There, what I would want to do, if able. Until next time, Neeros

The woman in the parking lot, is she into BDSM?

Well, I have not been on-line for a couple of days, and I kind of figure that is the way things will go for me on this Blog thing. But BDSM is something I think about on a daily basis, and my imagination on it is not in short supply either. I figure that I can put my daily thoughts about BDSM, fantasies, and realities down and post so that it averages out to be dailly, though I may go for a few days without posting.

Right now I am just trying to bring this blog up to date with my lifelong BDSM interest, Fantasies, and experiences, and that alone should keep things busy. But I think I should interject with what my current thoughts, fantasies, and experiences as well. So I guess alternating them is good, right? So let me start with current stuff here.

Recently I have been thinking about women in general, and how they might be open to BDSM. I have long figured that almost ALL women have a price. By that I mean a price that might be presented to which they would agree to participate in BDSM. In the past at work, as a topic of conversation, I broached this very subject with a few female co-workers. I presented the question to them like this. If I were to go into a bar, and approached a woman, and I offered her an open checkbook to write her price for sex with me, would most women accept the offer? And you know these women had to think for while. One, whom recently married, said “Hell, I did it for free!”. Another agreed with my concept that most women DO have a price, and she was a rather Conservative woman! Then I asked her, if she were not married, and a strange man approached her in a public place, and propositioned her in a money for sex proposition, would she accept if the money was enough. And surprisingly, she said probably! Sometime, maybe that strange woman will be interested in letting me spank her, not just have sex with her.

Of coarse these women were not aware of my interest in BDSM either. But that topic lasted for days! Next time, trying to figure out how to live out a grand fantasy.
 Neeros

Perfect woman Cont'd

Well, yesterday, after I posted I went to that site again to see her. (Drooool) She is just PERFECT! If you are curious, she is at Pain4fem.com and she is the model named Kelly. I went to the two videos that she is in, and grabbed a bunch of photo's so that I could drool while off line. She has a perfect back, butt, hell, there is nothing that is wrong with her physically. What really got me off was a close-up of her face while she was being canned in the video that shows a strong reaction and that she is crying.

Am I Sadistic, yep. But also masochistic. But I am also human, I never think someone should be forced into such, as I typically fanticize. I think that is important. If someone is going to be whipped or something untile the stage where they cry and such, and it leaves markes, ect, I thing it should be voluntary on the subjects part.

Now, that is not to say that a submissive may receive corporal punishment involuntarilly, no, not at all. What I am saying is that the involuntary part is voluntary. Take me for instance, when I am the submissive, I am more than willing to submitte to the judgement of another as to when I have had enough whippings. When in the act, and having my butt beaten, of coarse I want it to stop, but then I also want the high of the pain too that you get afterwards. So I always instruct the top that I want them to beat my butt until THEY think I have "learned" my lesson. That is why I always describe a judicial punishment to them, and I remind them that in judicial punishment, the court determines the sentence, not the criminal, and that the whipping is carried out to it's conclusion, regardless of the prisoners pain tolerance or pleadings. In fact, that is the whole point, to whip the prisoner beyond what their pain tolerance is so that they will not committ crime again! THAT is what I want done to me, and THAT is what I like to see when watching, or giving. It is a sexual turn on for me, but it must be eithical in nature. So the photo's of her yelling out and crying are a turn on because she obviously was a willing participant in her own flogging.

Now I also enjoy erotic spanking too. But that is for another blog. Until later.

Neeros

That specieal Woman

For a long time I have been looking for that someone special.

She has a certain look, and loves BDSM.

She likes to give spankings and whippings as much as she likes to recieve them. She finds it all very erotic. She loves the power plays, yet she does not take advantage of them by playing mind games.

Her look is of coarse pretty, but Blonde (almost white hair). Her eyes are a Blue or Green, so beutiful, you can't help but stare at them. Her body is neither skinny, nor is she overweight. Her build is athletic, but not quite amozonian.

Well, yesterday, I found her, at least a photo of her. I was browsing a BDSM site and there she was, stunning. She stars in a BDSM video or two. The one that was featured, she plays a prison guard that takes advantage of her position over female prisoners to do sexual things. Well the prisoner rebels and strikes her, so she particpates in canning the prisoner. Then the warden finds out the truth, so she gets strung up and naked from the waist up and flogged, then nude and bent over for the cane. One photo of her shows her naked from the waist up, wrists bound with arms spread, and she is looking shyly at the camera man. It is from the front side, and it captures her full beauty. I say, if I met her, I might not be able to control myself!! Until later

Neeros

Discovering the BDSM world as an adult

When I turned 18, I of coarse started to buy porn. But nothing really interested me, that is until I bought a variations magazine. Then I discovered some stories that really turned me on. I also saw a couple of ads from BDSM publishers. It was not until I moved away from home that I started to order though, at about age 21. I first ordered a letter, and asked the publisher if this was all legal. He said it was, and not to worry.

In a later edition of variations, I saw an ad for Nu-West. I was living with a roomate at the time, my first official residence away from my parents! So I ordered their catalogs for like $20. I sooo anticipated them! I remember a couple of weeks later, the mail came, and there it was, a large envelope containing the catalogs! My roommate was at work, so I ran into my room and opened it. The first thing I saw was a photo on the front of a cataloge with one woman accross the knee of another, and the woman doing the spanking was using a hair brush and gritting her teeth! I knew I had found my interest. I thumbed through the catalogs, and with-in five minutes I was masterbating to the photo's. I know for days later I was doing the same, and at the same time planning my first purchase of a spanking video. More on that later.

Neeros

BDSM in my Puberty

I remember puberty as a time of discovery. First, hair started to grow down there, and then I discovered how good masterbation felt. It was not long before I started to fantsize and incorporate BDSM into my masterbations. At first I started to imagine being brutally whipped until I masterbated. Then I started to actually perform self strappings using a belt. I remember that one time I left a bruise and someone noticed it at football practice. Being from a farm I explained it away as a work accident. Later I started to imagine torture, and I would take a pocket knife and stick it in my butt, all because of the discomfort. I imagined that someone was interrogating me doing that.

I remember the first time I saw photo's of BDSM. A neighbor freind of mine had a porn mag that featured a article on a BDSM dungeon in the mission district of San Fransisco in the old Montgomery ward building. I wonder if it is still there? Anyhow, it showed several photo's of BDSM. One sticks in my mind where a woman who was nude, was being heisted by her ankles upside down so that she could be flogged. They also stated that it was a good position to have hot wax poured on those private areas. Of coarse I took a que from that, and grabbed a couple of birthday candles and matches. I would go down stairs into the utility room, get naked, and lay down proping my legs up against a piece of furnature to simulate being upside down. Then I would light the candle and hold it up so that it would land between my legs in that area between my penis and butt. Quite a sensitive area, and torturing myself that way was really a great experience.

But I was growing up in a rural area of America, where BDSM was about as foreign as Brothels. So I was alone. It wasn't until I was 18 that I would be truely able to discover and explore this BDSM world of ours. Next post, discovering the BDSM world as an adult.

Neeros

My First Fantasy

I have always had an interest in BDSM, since a child. Yep. I think it all started when I was around age 6. My parents were watching a civil war era movie, and one scene in particular sticks in my mind. The KKK was brutally flogging a Yankee sympathizer, then when done, they shot him in the head. The flogging interested me.

Not much later I began to fantasize about being flogged myself. I remember on Saturday mornings, I would go down stairs to the family room to watch cartoons, while my parents slept in. I was still an only child, as my brothers were not yet born. I remember sneaking into a guest bedroom we had off the family room, take off my underwear so that I was naked, and lay on the bed spreading my arms and legs out imaginining that they were tied so that I was helpless and unable to move so as to avoid the flogging I was about to receive. Then I would imagine being bruttally flogged. As I had not yet reached puberty, sex was not a part of this fantasy.

That went on a couple of saturdays, until my mother walked in on me. I would give up the fantasy then until puberty. Until next time.

Neeros

I...The emperor, order my own flogging!!

OK, this is an extention of my first Blog.

Since I am Emperor, I figure I can do what I want without question. And since I also fantasize about being flogged myself, I might as well do it! So, I go to one of my judges and confess that I have committed a transgression, say a sin. I tell him to give me what he would sentence one of the commoners to for such a transgression, and his reply is a three minute flogging. GREAT! Just what I want!

So, I make it official! I committed a sin, and submitte to his authority to sentence me as he would a commoner. I order him to not be lienient on me, thus he reluctantly sentences me to a three minute flogging.

Immidiatly I call for a female executioner. I figure, since I am emperor, I at least can choose the person that is going to flog me, right? She is the perfect woman. A blonde, hair is almost white in color, pretty face, perfect small but nicely round butt, breasts are of good size, but not too big.

In my private chambers, I announce to her that I am ordering her to give me a flogging, as in to carry out the sentence. My special instructions to her are, there are none! Well, there are a couple. She is to treat me like any other flogging. Instructions in the court yard, order me to strip to complete nudity and stand at attention. March to the platform and stand in front of the whipping post I am assigned too.

I failed to mention in my last blog what the punishment was for failure to heed orders or to attempt to cover private parts in attempting to show modesty. The criminal is immidiatly ordered to turn, spread their legs, bend over, touch their ankles, and receive 5 strokes of a cane! If they fall, or take their hands off their ankles, two strokes are added for each infraction of not maintaining "The position".

My specific instructions are that if anything, she is to be more harsh and aggressive than otherwise. Her goal is to make me scream and beg for her mercy. But I specifically instruct her to ignore all pleadings and orders on pain that she will meet me in my private dungeon where I will treat her to a five minute flogging...Personally!!! I also instruct her that regardless of what I say, she will not be held responsible for ignoring my pleadings and orders while she is flogging me, in fact she will be rewarded for doing so. I also tell her that once in the courtyard, I am no longer her emperor, and she my subject, but I will be the criminal, and she the executioner. The sentence is to be carried out immidiatly. I will meet her in the court yard in five minutes.

Jumping ahead, as I am marched to the platform, I intentionally test her by trying to hide my Penis. Just as instructed, she orders me to turn away from the crowd (who by now are excited to see that their cruel emperor is going to receive a dose of his own medicine, little do they know how much I crave it!) spread my legs, bend over and hold my ankles. She proceeds to give me five strokes of the cane...WHOOSH....SNAP....PAIN!! I stand up immidiatly in a involuntary reaction. DAMN, that HURT!! And I realize that I not only have four more coming, but I have just added two more, so I have six more to "look forward too"! YIKES!! All of a sudden I no longer want to do this! But I bend over for the next six. And in short order, she layes them on, making sure each one is felt, and leaves a welt! Whoosh, Crack..... six more times. I am barely able to hold position!! And I have yet to be tied to the whipping post to have her flog me!!

After marching into position, and being shackled to the whipping post, she does as ordered. She starts with a flogger on my right butt cheek, and after one minute switches to the left, then after the second minute she picks up a whip and whips my back. I am left there with welts and bleeding for a full hour afterwards, until she lets me down. Pure agony.

After I recover somewhat, I am sexually aroused, and I proceed to have sex with her in my quarters.

 
In my next blog, a bit of background to this fantasy.

A Fantasy musing

Being this is my first Blog, I just want to give you a taste of my BDSM world. If you follow this blog, you will learn about me over time.

I was recently inspired to create a new Fantasy, so here it is:

I am a king or Emperor in a land unknown, with absolute power. As Emperor, I love the idea of floggings, and take advantage of my power to make them happen. First, several criminals are lined up in the courtyard, ladies to end, men to the other, and I announce the following:

"You are here because you have committed a crime, and have been sentenced to be flogged. As such you have been ordered to meet here, and your sentence is about to be carred out. YOU are about to be flogged. These are your instructions, follow them, and your pain will be limited to your sentence. First, when ordered, you will disrobe to complete nudity when these instructions are complete. Upon disrobing you will stand errect with your arms at your side facing me in a "at attention" manor. ANY attempt to show modesty by covering your private parts or other parts of your body will be met with an immidiate punishment with the cane, in a manor to be described shortly. You will follow all orders without question or comment, or additional punishment will again be immidiately carried out.

When you arrived, you were given a slip of paper that has a number on it, that number is your assigned whipping post. When you arrive onto the platform, you are to make sure that you stand in front of your assigned whipping post, lest you will otherwise recieve someone elses sentence, which could be worse than your own!

After you are naked, you will be ordered to march out to the courtyard platform in an orderly manor and while maintaing attention and your arms at your sides, you will climb the stairs and continue marching to your assigned whipping post, where you will stand in front of it facing the crowd with your arms at your sides, at attention. When the executioner approaches you, he or she will order you to turn around and offer your wrists so that you can be shackled to the whipping post. Your ankles will also be shackled. After that, each prisoners sentence will be read aloud with your crime, and the sentence affixed on the post above your head. The executioner will then carry out each sentence with full vigor and aggression to assure maxumum pain and punishment.

Sentences will be in the number of minutes the flogging is to take. For example, a one minute flogging. The time will start when the first lash lands, and end when the time keeper calls out "time". For sentences longer than one minute, the timekeeper will announce the start of each minute. At that time the executioner will have the option of changing the instrument of choice, and where on your body the instrument is applied.

When your sentence is completed, you will stay in position for one full hour, then be released, unless medical attention in necessary. However, if medical attention is needed, and you can not stay for the full hour, you may, and likely will be subjected to further punishment in the future."

Interesting, right?

I was fantasizing that a three minute flogging would entail a flogging on the back for one minute, a flogging on each butt cheek for one minute each. More details later.

Neeros