Mistress Holly from NJ
OK, well, no I have not disappeared and forgot about blogging! I just have had no TIME!
Frankly, BDSM has been at the back of my mind as well. At the same time, I needed to blog something, right? I did try to email a blog, but it got lost somewhere, and never posted. That would be best though, as emails are easy to write and send.
Most recently, I have been conversing with mistress Holly from New Jersey www.mshollynj.com. She is a professional dominant. I learned of her from another blogger, saw her picture, and felt that she is the Dominant that I was looking for. She is pretty, and best of all, a little beefy. In beefy, I mean attractive beefy. I have always had a thing for body building women and such. Not over done, mind you. But women that look like they can handle themselves physically. Now the reason I like it is because I have always imagined being involved in a judicial flogging, and it just seems to me a woman that is strong, would likely be capable of really swinging that whip! And judicial to me means that having a executioner that can really dish it out. So when I look for a dominant, I look for a woman that is not overweight, but is muscular, which is what Misstress Holly seems to be. I have exchanged a couple of emails with her, and she seems to be exactly what I am looking for. We still have a bit of interviewing to do before we get together. Here is the initial email I sent her:
Hello,
Allow me to introduce myself. I am a 6'4" male that lives in Texas. I work for …., and every once in a while I do find myself in your region. I am not purely a submissive, but rather a switch. When I play the dominant role, I go by the alias Neeros. When I am the submissive, I am Robert. My age, if it matters is 35.
When it comes to experience, I have been interested in the scene for about 13 years, when I discovered it. But my true interest goes back to about age 6, when I saw a flogging scene in a movie. That sparked an interest, and I fantasized at that age by going to the guest room, stripping, and spreading myself across the bed, then fantasizing that I was being brutally whipped.
But real experience extends to about 6 sessions over the years, none of which were satisfying. The reason? Severity. I could never convey that what I wanted was more than I could withstand, and no one ever tried to push the limits beyond.
The reason I am writing you is to present what I am looking for, and ask if you are able to provide it. First though, how do you prefer to be addressed?
My fantasy is rather simple. I want to be fully bound, so that movement is impossible. Being that you are familiar with Nu-West, you are familiar with what they call "over-the-box" are you not? That seems to be what I am looking for in terms of bondage. In terms of corporal punishment, I am looking for an experience that would be judicial in nature, in that the punishment is severe, with no respect for pain tolerance limits, but would be subject to a predetermined type, and number of strokes. Something in the line of X number of strokes of a strap, followed by X number of strokes of a cane, ect. You, with you only regarding my health, but not my tolerance for pain, would carry out the predetermined sentence.
So before I go further, is that what you can, and are willing to do?
Thanks for your attention,
Robert
I delightfully received the following response from her:
Robert,
It is wonderful to 'meet' you. You may address me as either 'Ma'am' or 'Ms. Holly'. If you've viewed all of the contents of my site I'm sure you at least have an idea that I can provide what you are looking for. Causing you pain doesn't negatively affect me at all. I tend to be a bit sadistic, so you might even get a smile. Though I am on the nu-west/leda site, I do not own nor have I viewed any of their movies, so I am not familiar with the exact position you refer to. However, if you describe it to me I will certainly consider it and have absolutely restrained individuals in the past to where they were not able to move. I favor severe sessions and enjoy using each implement as it was intended to be used. I believe that far too many in this field grow soft with concern over displeasing the one they are disciplining. I will say that I know once the discipline begins that you will not enjoy it and you will wish for it to end. I also know that if I do stop at that point you will be disappointed later. I am mentally strong enough (as well as physically) to carry out the discipline as you need it even when you no longer desire it.
I have a similiar background. I have had a life long interest in discipline with my earliest memories around age 8. I do not act like a Disciplinarian... it is who I am. I don't feel the need to yell or be rude to you, that isn't what discipline is about, in my opinion. I will, however, be strict and firm with my judgements and carry them out as I see fit. I will ensure that you receive what I set out to accomplish.
With the type of session you are seeking I would have to assume that you are not concerned with bruising or marks that may last several days/weeks?
- Ms. Holly
And my response back:
Dear Ms. Holly,
First, allow me to thank you for your prompt response, I really do appreciate that. Yes, I have viewed the contents of your website, and it looks like you deliver a painful session, which is what I am looking for, and yes, with the type of session I am looking for, I would expect marks to last weeks, which to me would be like a reminder of what I went through. The fact that you are a lifelong disciplinarian, and what sounds like a lifestyle disciplinarian is very encouraging to me. For your reference I have attached a photo of a nu-west session that incorporates "the box". Please be warned, it is a woman over the box, not a man, so please do not be offended. I am including it to give you an idea of what I have in mind.
Your comments on having the ability to carry through with the punishments are encouraging as well. In all, I think that you are the Dominant that I have been searching for, but then only a session would totally provide the confirmation of that. I guess my primary concern has always been that with the dominants that I have been involved with, they have always insisted on a "safe" word, which I understand. The problem with a safe word is that there is a tendency to use it, when you really want the session to go beyond that point. To me, a better way is to use a series of colors to indicate where you stand on a pain scale, and even at that, only if the dominant insists on having it. Me personally, as I described, I prefer to utilize your judgment fully on when to stop, and what is enough. My health is my only concern, not my pain tolerance. My fantasy has always been where the punishment is judicial, and of coarse if you are sentenced to corporal punishment by a government court of some type, they have no concern for your pain tolerance, only your health. And in terms of how far to go? Far beyond what I think I can handle, or would want when it is happening. I am looking for something like your sentencing me to X amount of lashes, then carrying it out to completion without regard to my pleadings or desires. Your roll is to punish me, and it is not a punishment if you stop when you have reached my pain tolerance. I kind of imagine you sentencing me to 50 strokes of the strap, and then when carrying it out, my pain tolerance is about 20, and I ask you to stop, then plead, then beg, but you just continue until all 50 are given. My transgressions? I think the worst would be when I broke up with one woman, only to date another the same night. I broke the first woman’s heart. And I am sure I could come up with more.
Well, that is pretty much what I am looking for from you. I would suggest some transgressions to you, you would determine a proper sentence and carry it out fully with no regard to my pleadings for mercy, or my screams of pain, but only to the welfare of my health. And I guarantee you, if you do a proper job, I will be asking you to stop, ect, and I would hope you would not.
OK, enough of that, I won't waste any more of your time. Unless you like to write back and forth. I do enjoy conversing with others in this field, about fantasies and experiences. So unless you want to discuss interests in corporal punishment, I won't respond to you again, as I respect your time, except to set up an appointment and to get needed information to keep the appointment. I do hope though that you would like to converse through e-mail since I do admire your ability to work in this field that we each have a long lifestyle interest in this field. I am curious about your personal experiences and fantasies. I have always wanted to openly discuss my interests and fantasies with someone, but that would be up to you. Thank you for your time.
Robert
Interesting, right? Stay tuned, I may have a story to tell.
Neeros
posted by Neeros @ 8:48 PM
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